yes; i deleted my deepest posts, the ones about the lost months.
Christmas just ended, this year instead of sitting there and smiling as took in everything that is "my life" I found myself missing a lot. People, things. perhaps I'm the one MISSING.
i work at 9am; Good Morning, Lexus of Manhattan guest services, how may I direct your call? Its cool i guess, i don't do diddly squat but answer a phone, easy money baybay.
i wish i had a bouquet of orchids or calla lilies right now to sit on my vanity, i rearranged my room to accommodate these awesome pictures of Marilyn Monroe i got for Christmas, its pretty cute accept i wish i had some flowers, i don't get flowers =/ .
Florida is sounding like a pretty nifty idea right now, i just want a fresh start. ive fallen into a life that isnt what i want at all, its not me its like a cute pair of this seasons steve maddens that you look at and its like you really want them but they're like a size 5 and you know your a size 6 and as bad as you want them to fit cuz they go so well with ur new BJ bag you know they like never will unless you get that foot binding thing those crazy asian women get and thats like totally not even an option but like yea my point is; it doesnt fit me, and although ive tried for it to fit me it like never will, IMMA 6!
